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  • Title: Bad Mix
  • Archive Date: 2011-06-24
  • Author: Dana Doggett Profile
  • Description: drabble Summary: Musings of John Doggett soon after the death of his son in 1993.
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  • Keywords: John Doggett, Pre-XF, Drabble,
  • Rating: PG13
Title: Bad Mix 
Author: Dana Doggett
Date: August 2, 2006
Rating: PG-13 (use of the "F" word)
Category: Doggett POV, drabble
Word Count: 116
Timeline: soon after Luke's death, 1993
Disclaimer: In my hands these characters really aren't the characters that surfer created,
they're better than that, they like to explore more extreme possibilities.

Beta: Alexa

Summary: Musings of John Doggett soon after the death of his son in 1993.
Dedication: To smackalalala, this drabble is for you.


There it sits in all its fucking glory - the empty glass. Barbara's going to be pissed, but I
don't care. This is how I'm dealing with it. The alcohol numbs the pain.

Luke is gone. There's nothing either of us can do about it. She longs for comfort. I long
for alcohol. I long for my own pathetic life to end. I blame myself.

My revolver sits next to me. I can already smell the gunpowder. I empty all rounds but
one. Locked and loaded, one bullet. I spin the cylinder.

The muzzle is cold against my temple. I pull the trigger.


Monica would say this is a sign that there's something worth living for.



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